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Verses Undone: I Hate

I hate it when you’re here
I hate it when you’re gone
I hate the way I need you when you’re not around
I hate the way I need you when I don’t know where you are

I hate it when you say you love me
I hate it because I know you don’t really mean it
I hate it when you say you’ll always be there for me
I hate it because we both know you’re not

I hate that I love you
I hate that I do
I hate that no matter what I can’t hate you
I hate the way you comfort me

I hate the way it never lasts
I hate the things you say to me
I hate the way I can’t help but believe them
I hate the way you hurt me

I hate the way I hurt myself
I hate the way the blame always ends up on me
I hate the things you do to me
I hate the happiness that comes with them

I hate missing you
I hate it when you ignore me
I hate that I can’t tell you how I feel
I hate that you have better things to do

I hate that I’m your last priority
I hate that I feel this way
I hate that I have to live like this
I hate that I’ll have to replace you

I hate making decisions because you can’t step up
I hate the way you make me smile
I hate the way you always help me when I’m in denial
I hate that you then have to go away

I hate that I have to miss you
I hate that I have to love you
I hate that it feels like you were never here
I just hate everything

I just hate it all

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Liberal Muslim, social justice and human rights activist, cat lover, author and fellow human.

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